Welcome to the Family....

Just a quick Congrats to Justin and Katie on their new bundle of joy!  I was very happy to be there to help welcome Baby Caleb into the world!  He is beautiful and I know he will bring a lot of happiness to your lives!  I love you both and I am looking forward to seeing you both as wonderful parents!!!!

For Better or For Worst

Well, Windell and I have been married for a whole week now....I know...big deal - right?  But let me tell you about our week...for better and for worst...

Friday a week ago we got married...We just went to the courthouse in Andalusia and had a nice little ceremony and stayed the night there.  We went to David's Catfish house and had dinner with my parents, my sister, and her boyfriend. 

Saturday we came home so I could go to Katie's baby shower.  It was very nice and from what I understand she got almost everything they need!  We are ready for Caleb to get here so we can meet him...

Sunday was nice and relaxing. 

Before I go to Monday let me let you in on a little secret...Windell and I found out a few weeks ago that I was pregnant...because of some problems and my past two pregnancies I was told to take it easy...I actually was 6 weeks pregnant when we got married...So....

Monday I was in a bit of pain so Windell took me to the ER...low and behold we found out it was another ectopic pregnancy (http://health.yahoo.net/channel/ectopic-pregnancy.html).  However the pregnancy was not far enough along that surgery was mandatory...yet...so we were given he option of surgery to remove the tube or an injection of methotrexate (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Methotrexate) and be given a 25% of still facing surgery....We decided to try the injection in hopes that we will be able to try one more time for a baby.

Tuesday....Rest and pain...The pain is caused from the injections - which the doctor warned me about and said that it will probably get worse before it gets better.

Wednesday I went back to the doctor so she could do an ultrasound just to make sure everything was "ok" and that there was no rupture...so far...so good...

Thursday we went back to the doctor for yet another ultrasound.  Everything looks ok but I am not out of the woods for surgery yet.  I was told o rest and take it as easy as possible.  I am still in pain but I was told that was completely normal.

Today - I feel a little better, but the pain is still there.  I have to go back to the doctor on Monday for another ultrasound and some blood tests for my HCG Levels.  As long as my levels decrease by 25-30% I will have to go back weekly for blood tests and they will monitor them until they research a negative number...if they are not going down I will be scheduled for surgery to remove the tube.  I am nervous, scared, and disappointed...but we will get through this...it will just take time.

Windell was on vacation this week...he spent all week taking care of me and trying to make sure I was comfrontable.  I know that was certainly not the vacation he had planned but I am thankful that he has been here with me and that he is so understanding.  His next vacation is scheduled for April...and it will be much better because he will have a grand baby he can start spoiling!

Just a VERY quick update

Windell and I finally got married on February 18, 2011!!!  We have been talking about it for a while and finally just took the steps to make it final...now I just have to get my last name changed on everything...I guess I will start that process on Monday.

We decided to just go to the court house so we could save some money...we went to Alabama and had a quick little cermony in the judges chambers.  We had dinner with my parents and my sister and her sweetie and stayed the night in Andalusia and came home today.  It was night to get away for a night - even if Windell did forget the suitcase and we had to go buy clothes!!!  LOL 

Tonight is Katie's baby shower and I am looking forward to seeing her and what all she gets for Caleb.

Where Has January Gone?

I can hardly believe that January is close to being over...only about another week.  I do not have much to say so far about January...so I guess this means this year is off to a good start (LOL).  Even though the year is off to a good start there has been some down time.  I got sick close to the beginning of the month with the flu bug that was going around so I was in bed for almost a week - all better now!  Windell has not been feeling the best lately - I think he is just really tired because he has not been sleeping well...hopefully things will be better for him as this week goes on.

The kids are all doing good.  We do not see them as often as we would like...but I guess that is the way it goes for us.  Stacey is good as far as I know...atleast that is what she tell me - excpet she HATES Chemisty!!! (LOL) 

We went and visited a place called Live Oak Landing here in Freeport...Let me tell you it is beautiful and gives you time to reflect on things.  We will have to go and stay one night in Spring/Summer so we can enjoy the outdoors.  The people there are very friendly. You can relax in one of the cottages or you can spend the day fishing.  The cottages are small, but they have everything you need in them to feel at home...well, everything except your clothes and food!!!  I would recommend this location to anyone who is looking for just get away from the house for a short time frame.  You should check out their website... http://www.liveoaklanding.rvcoutdoors.com/

Well, that is pretty much all I got for now.  Just wanted to update my blog - but there is not much to update.

Until next time..... 

Slowly but surely...progress!

I was sitting here thinking that it has been a while since my last blog entry so I decided to add another post.  I have a hard time trying to think of things to blog about...I really thought this would be easier...

For Christmas I got the Wii Fit Plus (From Santa of course!!!).  I had been talking about getting on so that I could do some sort of workout without having to join a gym and be out in the heat during the summer.  I know that is terrible but I can not stand the heat outside...anyway...I have found that I really enjoy the aerobics and balance games on the Wii...and I try to make sure I do it atleast 3-4 times a week, even though my goal is to do it daily.

I told myself I would only weigh in on a weekly basis...and I was not impressed with the first 2 weigh ins - I actually gained weight...and was very disappointed and discouraged.  When I weighed this week I have lost 5 pounds...and I know it is probably mainly water weight and ONLY 5 pounds....I am very happy with seeing the lower number!   

If you have never used the program it give you a 'body test' and one you do all of the required activities it tells you your "Wii Fit Age" and the closer you are to your actual age (or the lower) the better "in shape" you are...I have taken my Wii Fit Age from 40 to 32 in three weeks....so that has to could for something right...lol

I have been watching what I eat and the portions along with the exercise so hopefully as I build endurance I will be able to do more and more. 

Jared love the Wii Fit...he actually calls it "The Exercise Game" and wants to play it all the time.  He does not understand all the coordination with the games but he gives them all his best shot and looks forward to the end when he get his "golden stars" from each game.  I have never seen a kid laugh so much while he is playing.  I think his favorite game is the soccer game where he is suppose to hit the soccer balls with his head...but he had much rather laugh when he gets hit with the shoes!!!

Well, I have nothing else to really say right now so I am gonna go do laundry...I know this was a boring post but I thought I would update my blog...still working towards updating this weekly...I will try to find something more interesting to post about next time!!!

Fragile Friendships

"Friendships are fragile things and require as much care in handling as any other fragile and precious thing."   - Randolph Silliman Bourne

With the start of a new year I am happy that I have been able to deal with the fact that a someone who I thought was my friend stabbed me in the back and without thinking twice about it.  This persons actions have not gone unnoticed by me or others.  Of course I miss the "friendship" that I thought we had but I know the true you now and I am OK with the way things have ended up.  I am not the type of person that you can continuously run over to make yourself look good.  I will not conform to your way of thinking and I am not scared to voice my opinion if I do not agree with you.  At a time in my life when I could have used a girlfriend to talk to and lean on you were no where to be found and you let your true colors show by going behind my back (or so you thought) and saying things that were totally false and inaccurate.  Not only that you were working behind my back to destroy my career but also my relationship by putting undo stress into my life.  Thankfully, I now know the true you and I hope that you are happy with who you have become.

2010 Summary

I thought it would be appropriate to start a journal for 2011 by taking a minute to look back through 2010...Good times and bad!  I have to admit - this has not been the best year for me but I believe that it has made me a stronger person.
I am very lucky to have my wonderful family that has been there for me this year - even when I gave up hope on several different occasions...they were always there to help me through.  I can not name everyone  but you know who you are....and....thank you and I love you all!

I will try to pick something from each month that stands out in my journey in life throughout 2010.  So...here I go... (you have been warned!!!)

JANUARY- I was put on STD (Short Term Disability) by my doctor...little did I know it would literally be months before I could return to Coke.  There were MANY test and prodecure with no diagnosis...

FEBRUARY - Pretty dull month as I remember.  I was still dealing with doctor appointment after doctor appointment...

MARCH - Finally - a release to go back to work.  I was looking forward to getting back on track and enjoying life - even though there is still no diagnosis and I was still having some of the same symptoms.  Even though I had my release I only works a short 2 weeks before I was put back on STD due to not being able to perform my job responsibilities 100%.

APRIL - Being back on STD I did a lot of sitting around the house - well...and going to doctor appointments! 

MAY - Mother's Day - What a wonderful and exciting day for me personally!  Through all the feeling down and out with all that was going on and still being out of work I had unexpected news - a positive home pregnancy test!!!  (Yes - I actually took the test on Mother's Day - though not thinking about it being Mother's Day at the time.)  My excitement shortly (and I mean very shortly - only 3 days) turned into pain, fear and an emergency trip to the hospital (for the 2nd time in 3 days).  I went into emergency surgery - ended up the unbearable pain was due to an ectopic pregnancy.  An over night stay in the hospital and I was back home.

JUNE - Still going to appointments...and you guessed it - no diagnosis yet. Katie graduated this month!  I am so proud of her!  She is a beautiful young lady!

JULY - Windell took me to see the play Grease at Northwest Florida State College this month - I love it!  I was released back to work close to the end of the moth - still no firm diagnosis but my primary doctor feels that I have a condition that causes my blood pressure to run lower than normal and/or just drop for no apparent reason...Neurocardiogenic Syncope (NCS).  (To read more on it... http://www.dinet.org/NCS/ncs.htm)  Even though I have had all the symptoms of NCS I have never passed out (thankfully!).

AUGUST - If I remember correctly - this is the month that we found out that Katie and Justin are having a baby.  I was over come with emotions after all that happened in May - but still very happy and excited for them!  I am still looking forward to being Mimi and spoiling the little guy rotten!

SEPTEMBER - My birthday this month - yet it was another day that ended up not being the best for me this year...I miscarried one day before my birthday...thankfully it was a "regular miscarriage" and not another ectopic. 

OCTOBER - Windell went to an Alabama game this month.  I would like for him to be able to go to at least one a year...he enjoys it so much!  Windell ask me to marry him this month...yes I know...FINALLY - and of course I said yes!

NOVEMBER - I resigned from my position with Coca Cola this month.  It was a hard decision but I still feel like it was the best decision for me! 

DECEMBER - I love Christmas...the lights, the food, the "happiness" - and this year has been no different.  I have enjoyed the new path that my life has started to take and I am looking forward to a better 2011!

Ok....I know...bad year...like I said...I am looking forward to a better 2011!

I hope to have enough self discipline to post something new at least every week...even though my life it pretty boring...I will try to think of something to reflect upon.  As for right now...I am glad to see 2010 coming to an end and I am looking forward to the upcoming year. 

My new years resolution...I have a few actually - first and foremost - be true to myself and never allow anyone to change who I am.  I would also like to loose a few pounds and eat healthier (I think everyone has this one). 

Happy New Year Everybody!